He bought me flowers and then broke up with me. I threw them away in a violent fit, showing him I was just as done as he was. I grew tired of the fights that had taken over what we once had. They debilitated us in way I never thought possible. I thought I had found forever, but now I know were forever really lies. It's in someone else's arms.

To me it was more than a break up because I was in love. He was... special to me in many ways. I thought we had something more than a disposable love. I regret nothing, though and I still love him. I do understand I messed a few things up. No, not with him, but with someone else. I hope you know who you are. I've been thinking about you quite a lot recently. Since thinking about him makes me break down in fits, I've turned back to you, because you said you'd always love me. Realize, I love you, too. I regret disappearing, leaving you hanging waiting for love returned. Something I couldn't give you very freely when you were mine.

I don't understand why I couldn't do this before it was too late. I bet you have someone beautiful to call your own. I watched you grow up and turning something lovely. But I also saw you fall apart in my hands. I'd give anything to just see you. To hear your voice. I just wish you were here.

I love you. Forever and ever.

"I want to scream I love you from the top of my lungs."